stress~ very stress!! have been thinking this for like 2 months.. should i quit school anot? i wanna quit school is because i have no interest in the course im taking now... Business Information Technology suck big time.. people will be thinking why i had choosen this course in the first place when i know im not interested in this course..
in the first place, i wanna go shatec.. i love to be a chef.. but my parents rejected this idea and refused be to go shatec is because they have the old thinking mindset that shatec is equal to ITE which is for students who dont wanna study.. for bengs and lians only.. wtf?! so i told them i wanna go to the culinary course in TP.. they rejected it too.. and want me to get into some business course.. and for me.. i dont like business course in the first place.. so i try to find some course that have a balance between business and other modules.. so i went for the poly open house.. and i learn about BIT!! TP was so nice telling me that they offer 50% of busines modules and 50% of IT modules.. and so i decided to take this course since im interested in IT too.. so in sem 1, i learn nothing about IT except WDS= web design.. which i had learn it by myself when i first created my own blog.. and everything are about BUSINESS!! basic accounting, macro-economic.. boring to the max.. i just dont know why the fuck people were struggling with basic accounting and macro-economic.. im try to boost here.. but wtf?! but i find it easy and manageable... for BA, maybe is because i have POA background and for macro econ i think people just love to make themselves confused by ppl... when people think is diff then u think is diff..
secondly, i hate it the way im studying now.. in fact, i did not study for the past one year.. since 11nov2008.. after my sci paper 1.. even though, i hate to study.. but then i will tell myself of the importance in studying and etc to force myself to study... and now i never even bother to study... never even bother to take out the book and read through.. i really hate this kind of feeling.. i would love to study but i wanna to study something i like.. something i enjoy doing...
thirdly, is because im not close to my classmates anymore... i dont know why also.. but that doesnt means i got to quit school.. because im trying to avoid it only...
i know that these few days for me to decide whether to continue my studies is a very tough time for me and my parents.. i really dont wanna disappoint them.. and i know that these few days, God is with me.. God is answering my prayer.. he told me that he will be there for me no matter wat decision i have make in my future... also i had told shane about it yesterday.. and he will support me in every decision i make too..
i also know that my parents cant afford the money for me to study in shatec.. i cant blame them.. because i come from a poor family.. told them to get loan from the bank and in the future i will pay the bank myself with my own hardwork money but they dont want.. haixx=(
but i really cant make a decision yet.. but today i have to give an ans to my parents.. i told them that i will continue in this course.. but my mum keep on saying.. if u wanna continue pls dont tell us u wanna quit sch and i dont wanna see u keep on pon sch and never study.. but haixx.. i already told her.. i continue for now.. but if i really not interested i just apply for a course at shatec... and once it is approve i will straight away quit schooll... now im really fucking emo to the max...
i wanna cut my wrist.. thats wat a emo kid will do!!
IM A FUCKING EMO KID!
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