Blind and without a fishing pole

@ Sunday, December 26, 2010
i only blog once in a few months. but well. yesterday was Christmas Day. The day when Jesus Christ was born. Is Jesus's birthday! this year, i nv go Orchard or any friend's house for Christmas countdown party. I can just feel that the Lord Jesus is telling me to go to church to celebrate his special day in church with my cellmates and him. I have to say that this is my first time Christmas in church. I did not regret it and i believe that i will continue to celebrate this special day every year in church! Since is Christmas, we are having a combined service. Every singles are occupied till the extend some of us have to squeeze ourselves 2 persons one chair. hahah. Today Pastor Daniel was shared with us the Christmas message and Pastor Lawrence(his dad) be his chinese translator. The whole session was very entertaining and the message was strong. And i dont know why while having the breakfast before heading to service, i suddenly thought of how i celebrate Christmas in the past and find it very meaningless and today i going to celebrate it in a special way. Upon having this thought, a bible verse came into my mind which is from John 3:16. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believe in him should not perish and have eternal life." John 3:16 and you know what?! Pastor Daniel preach on the verse! AMEN! I am happy that i celebrate Christmas in church this year! :D 1:59 AM
@ Thursday, November 11, 2010
hey to blog again. i am tired now but i dont know why i cant fall asleep. i guess i really fall in love for you alrdy. i have been missing you every single day. i dont know whether are you are blur or acting blur? but ur character is kinda blur wor. haix. rmb you told me how much you really wish to go kpop night. i told you not to worry as i will get make sure i will be able to find you the ticket so that you can see FT Island and Onew just for you. within a day or so, i managed to help you get a tix from Gwen's friend. the tix was overpriced and i know you want to pay that kind of price. So i lied to you the seller selling at the original price and paid the rest. I never wanna tell you about the price is because i want you to enjoy the concert and dont want you to feel guilty. After getting the tix, i was kinda stress as i was holding a seated tix but managed to exchange with someone and accompanied you. You told me that you are worried on that day we wont get a nice view of the whole concert. and once again i hinted you by telling you i will queue overnight just for you. During the concert day itself. i hold ur shoulder like we were couple and you did not rejected it. Does it mean you feel comfortable with me? You also bought me candies from made in candy. what does that mean to you? a token of appreciation just for a normal friend or a token of appreciation for someone you care for? i have to admit tht day i actually wanna confess to you. But i just feeling so unwell since i queued overnight and etc. But i guess the main reason is because i just do not have the courage to confess to you? i dont know how come i am feeling this way. is it because i am scare i will be hurt in another relationship? after the concert, i also dont know why i do not have the courage to sms you and you did not msg me too:( should i ask for a date just you and me this sat for a movie and dinner? after that, i confess to you? i really dont know. God, can you please give me some hint? i do like her and wish to go to the next stage which is to be in a relationship with her. if yes, i would just ask her out this sat. pls help me God! 1:24 AM
@ Friday, August 13, 2010
ahh! i think i fall in love!! should i be happy? or should i be sad? the feeling i have now suck! sister faster come back help me! ahh! like her, im thinking! 2:50 AM
@ Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Hello to my own little world. Finally, im back to my own little world after dont know how many months. lol. Well, reason for coming back is because im kinda sad and down these few days. Again and again, i have back-slided and sway away from God. First, i stop spending my quiet time with God. Next, i stop going to church since the start of the year. And slowly, i stop praying to God and even stop saying my table grace before my meals. This resulting me turning back to my old self walking aimlessly. Being a hot-tempted guy, i got myself in alot of troubles during this year. Sigh. I don't know why. I dont dare to talk about this with my cell leader(Shane). I am struggling alone and feeling very miserable. I keep on praying to God and i know he is all along at my side battling along with the devil. But i just don't have the guts to take down the devil im facing now! In my heart, i know i wanna return to God. But it just seem like there is something trying to stop me to return back to God. Is it because i am the one who have problem? Dear Jesus, if you are reading my blog. Can you please answer my prayer and help me. Is kinda hard for me i know. Is another big challenge i going to face in my life. I hope this Saturday, i will go to church again and attend the service. I have already let everything out in my little world and i shall not just try but FORCE myself go to church every week! Just now, had a talk with my godsis-Amanda. We were talking about this girl i have been messaging her for these few weeks. Seriously, i scare i will fall in love with her but i am even more scare that either i will be hurt again or she will get hurt. Or even both parties will get hurt. I have to admit that she is a very beautiful girl. But when time passes, when i start to know her better i realise that she is really a nice and sweet girl that i am very comfortable to talk with. At times, i will think about her whenever i am alone. And even get jealous easily when she was with my good friend alone! emm. Maybe should give myself a grace period to see whether i really fall in love with her and from there will decide what should i do. Is 5.15am now!!! Shall give my godsister a morning msg to wake this little pig up and have to accompany her to sms to prevent her from falling asleep because i chatted with her very long and she have very little time to sleep. so yea! Enjoy urself in KL!! Again, i hope i will update my little world regularly. (Something impossible to do because im lazy xD) Post one Taeyeon's photo to end this post ^^ Our dear dorky leader, told us that she dont know how to agyeo. But every little action she make actually make her agyeo-ing. <3 4:45 AM
@ Monday, November 16, 2009
this song is by taeyang.. the song name is wedding dress.. very touching song.. below is the lyric and follow by the mv.. Oh, please leave him and come to me Baby… Please, don’t take his hand… Coz you should be my lady I’ve been waiting for you for so long… Please look at me now When the music starts You will vow to spend The rest of your life with him How I prayed every night That this day would never come The wedding dress you are wearing The wedding dress you are wearing It’s not me next to you The wedding dress you are wearing You never knew how I felt about you And I hated you so Sometimes I wish you would be unhappy Now I have no more tears left to cry When I’m by myself, I talk to you like you are here I’ve felt so restless every night Maybe I’ve known all along that this would happen I close my eyes and dream an endless dream Please leave him and come to me Baby, don’t hold his hand when he comes to you Coz you should be my lady I’ve been waiting for you for so long Look at me now When the music starts You will vow to spend The rest of your life with him How I prayed every night That this day would never come The wedding dress you are wearing The wedding dress you are wearing It’s not me next to you The wedding dress you are wearing Please be happy with him So that I can forget you Please forget how miserable I looked It’s gonna be unbearably hard for me for a long while to come pic of the day 1:16 AM
@ Tuesday, November 10, 2009
today topic is after 3 years and im still thinking of the past? nvm.. must stop thinking and bochap... well...sarcastic comments... childish? then why bother posting it.. L0L.. hahaha... this year must be really a bad year for me... so many unlucky things happening to me.. since the day sch start until now.. i have been alone.. sadded right? bobian.. but nvm, i believe in God's plan he have for me.. and super sian.. wat is the point for me to create a blog when i blog once in awhile.. hahhaha.. im just being lazy.. also sian to the max.. so long nv meet my sec sch clique.. i think should give them a call and call them out for midnight basketball and roti prata!!! i wanna go oversea now like so desperately?.. really regretted alot to the max.. last year my parents wanna bring me to shanghai and taiwan.. but i rejected them.. this year best!! my uncle wanna bring me korea during my holiday.. i rejected too.. then so heng i start to fall in love with SNSD the 9angels(: then zhun zhun that month got asia song festival and snsd performing.. and i missed it!! sian half.. nvm.. next year the long vacation.. i gonna request my parents to let me travel.. best is to go korea.. cuz i wanna see the 9 girls(: sorry ppl.. im now so into kpop now..hhaha... blog again next time..byebye! 10:47 PM
@ Sunday, October 25, 2009
stress~ very stress!! have been thinking this for like 2 months.. should i quit school anot? i wanna quit school is because i have no interest in the course im taking now... Business Information Technology suck big time.. people will be thinking why i had choosen this course in the first place when i know im not interested in this course.. in the first place, i wanna go shatec.. i love to be a chef.. but my parents rejected this idea and refused be to go shatec is because they have the old thinking mindset that shatec is equal to ITE which is for students who dont wanna study.. for bengs and lians only.. wtf?! so i told them i wanna go to the culinary course in TP.. they rejected it too.. and want me to get into some business course.. and for me.. i dont like business course in the first place.. so i try to find some course that have a balance between business and other modules.. so i went for the poly open house.. and i learn about BIT!! TP was so nice telling me that they offer 50% of busines modules and 50% of IT modules.. and so i decided to take this course since im interested in IT too.. so in sem 1, i learn nothing about IT except WDS= web design.. which i had learn it by myself when i first created my own blog.. and everything are about BUSINESS!! basic accounting, macro-economic.. boring to the max.. i just dont know why the fuck people were struggling with basic accounting and macro-economic.. im try to boost here.. but wtf?! but i find it easy and manageable... for BA, maybe is because i have POA background and for macro econ i think people just love to make themselves confused by ppl... when people think is diff then u think is diff.. secondly, i hate it the way im studying now.. in fact, i did not study for the past one year.. since 11nov2008.. after my sci paper 1.. even though, i hate to study.. but then i will tell myself of the importance in studying and etc to force myself to study... and now i never even bother to study... never even bother to take out the book and read through.. i really hate this kind of feeling.. i would love to study but i wanna to study something i like.. something i enjoy doing... thirdly, is because im not close to my classmates anymore... i dont know why also.. but that doesnt means i got to quit school.. because im trying to avoid it only... i know that these few days for me to decide whether to continue my studies is a very tough time for me and my parents.. i really dont wanna disappoint them.. and i know that these few days, God is with me.. God is answering my prayer.. he told me that he will be there for me no matter wat decision i have make in my future... also i had told shane about it yesterday.. and he will support me in every decision i make too.. i also know that my parents cant afford the money for me to study in shatec.. i cant blame them.. because i come from a poor family.. told them to get loan from the bank and in the future i will pay the bank myself with my own hardwork money but they dont want.. haixx=( but i really cant make a decision yet.. but today i have to give an ans to my parents.. i told them that i will continue in this course.. but my mum keep on saying.. if u wanna continue pls dont tell us u wanna quit sch and i dont wanna see u keep on pon sch and never study.. but haixx.. i already told her.. i continue for now.. but if i really not interested i just apply for a course at shatec... and once it is approve i will straight away quit schooll... now im really fucking emo to the max... i wanna cut my wrist.. thats wat a emo kid will do!! IM A FUCKING EMO KID! 5:53 PM
@ Tuesday, October 20, 2009
today is the 2nd day of school.. instead of going school.. you know where am i know? im slacking at home!! meaning i ponn-ed sch.. wtf?! ponn-ed sch for 2 days already.. and i just dont know why i dont wanna go school.. take today for an example.. i woke up at 9am and actually i have to prepare myself for 11am lesson.. in the end, i dont bother going sch and blogging now!! wat the fuck is wrong with me man.. i know that i should be studying hard now and dont disappointed my parents. because they work so hard for my school fee.. and yet im slacking at home.. fuck up man!! i seriously have to buck up now and get some life.. go to school and do some studies.. no more ponning.. today shall be the last day.. last day.. and tmr turn over a new leaf and be a good boy once again(: i believe that yesterday and sones who were at soshified already know the news.. and is hard to believe it and is hard for us to forget about this wonderful sone we had especially wenting.. Ryo had just left us yesterday in return back to the heaven.. even though, i dont know Ryo personally but by reading the posts from other ppl who knows him.. we can tell that he is a very nice guy that being loved by everyone.. i believe that he put on a good fight against the devil and he deserve a good rest now in the arm of God now... Ryo now u are there now.. i hope that u found happiness and love up there.. and may u bless the 9girls:D R.I.P Ryo:( the power of 9!! SNSD fighting!!! 11:14 AM
@ Saturday, October 10, 2009
first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER, WARREN AND JIANSHENG!! today went out to k with the jfc clique to celebrate clarence's birthday(early celebration) at k suite.. the place very nice.. well decorated.. good environment, good service, good foods and drinks.. the price also very good.. we spent $400 there!! "cheap" huh? but then is clarence's treat.. abit like guilty wor.. his birthday but he pay all.. and he just say have fun together can already... thanks alot clarence(: after tht went to makan and then home sweet home.. tmr if im not lazy, i will post again.. smth that make me very angry..haha.. 11:48 PM
@ Tuesday, October 6, 2009
hey to do a short post before i go back watching my show..haha.. today post might sound abit serious.. but i dont know why.. sigh~ i got this feeling that i gonna be like last time losing my faith in God again=( i dont know why.. i have not been really spending my quiet time with God for like a month? i just keep on telling myself, "aiyah, tmr then do lah.. God is a understanding God." and everytime i use tired as an excuse.. also i told myself regardless of wha, the first week of the month of church service i have to go.. but for this month i never go.. im just being lazy.. i dont know why.. also, when i change to sat service at TCT i cant feel the presence of God i used to feel when im in expo.. why is this happening to me? i just hope i can feel fresh once again with God.. hunger for his words again.. God pls help me.. Amen! 1:37 AM

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